This is the photo that started it all. I took this on December 22nd, 2008, a day that I was blessed with so many great shots. The weather was perfect and for some reason I was hit with composition inspirations so many times. This got me thinking about how our thoughts ripples through our actions in our daily life.
I was once a Human Services major (Alcohol/Drug Counseling, Mental Health Counselor, and the like), and one of my professors, Dr. John Smith, author of The Authenic Man, has taught us this:
“Change the way a man thinks, he will change the way he feels. Change the way he feels, he will change his behavior. Change the behavior, and his thoughts will change.”
I recently posted about Giving Up Before Starting which is about one of my biggest regrets. Instantly thinking that I don’t have a chance changed the way I felt about myself and I behaved accordingly — focusing more on earning money than living the life I want.
I was saved from this dangerous vortex by a handful of important people in my life who led me to free myself from the chains I bound myself with. I was imprisoned by it for so long that when I finally found the confidence to call myself a “designer” in 2015, it came to me as a surprise. I look back in my life now and I realize I had been designing since 2008 when I went on my first photo adventure, built my very first website, and designed my first logo for my internet radio show. Since then, I’ve been taking freelance clients as a side gig but never officially labeled myself a “designer”. It was a title I thought was reserved to those who went to school for it. “Real” artists who, when handed a piece of paper, can just make something out of nothing.
So why do I talk about this now? 2017 is the start of a new numerology 9 year cycle. Interestingly enough, 2008 was the beginning of the previous numerology cycle. I want to end this restrictive view of myself with the end of 2016 and start anew in 2017, with my acceptance of who I am and keep aspiring to be — a designer.
The thought I had when I took this photo in 2008 was of hoping to have a great day of taking photos. I took this photo as a good omen for the day and it didn’t fail me. In fact, most of the photos in my Earlier Works collection was taken on this day. Below is the original, unedited version:
As you can see, this photo didn’t need much editing really. This photo could stand on its own without the changes I made. But I opted for a more vibrant iteration of this because the original version again reflected my general somber disposition during that time of my life. For me, the original had a sad longing to it that no longer applied to my present self.
Also published on Medium.